This beautiful message is reprinted
with permission from Jo Ann Mummert Meinhart. Jo Ann posted her message in
the hope it resonates with others who have lost a beloved spouse. Her
inspiring words lets you know there is hope after loss and healing.
In memory of Ron Meinhart
January 11, 1949-September 22,2014
Living through Loss
Written by Jo Ann Meinhart
This September 22nd will be 10 years since your passing.
On that day our dreams shattered, and I was left alone.
For years the loss of you felt like a sword in my heart.
The loss today has morphed to rehearsing good memories of our time together.
It’s been ten short, long years since you’ve been gone.
Short because it seems like yesterday we parted.
And long because of the many changes I needed to make over these 10 years.
Learning to make decisions and do for myself has made me stronger. I am still learning.
For 43 years together we lived by integrity, practiced generosity and learned wisdom.
I treasure these traits and live by them every day. It makes me feel closer to you.
I am so aware that I am the final reflection and a continuance of us to our family and friends.
At first loss it felt like a burden, but now I know it serves in keeping your memory alive.
Hardships and hospital stays inevitably came. I wished you could give advice and be by my side.
During those times, I learned to find you in a different way.
I’d hear a song, or a hospital worker would speak kindly.
Advice came in so many unique ways…and I learned to hear the still small voice.
God has given me peace. It isn’t a surface feeling it’s a deep assurance inside.
All is well with us both. You, in heaven and me here.
I never thought I’d be able to attain peace without you.
I’ve had to trust in God’s presence and care in every way.
How did I go from tremendous grief to acceptance and joy?
I found something each day to be grateful for. In the beginning it was hard work.
Gradually gratitude grew and served to drown my pain.
Sometimes gratitude came with just being with others who shared the same loss…
Gratitude was my nourishment, and I became more aware of sadness’s attempt to ambush.
Grief is a slow process not to be short circuited. I grieved deeply because I loved deeply.
So, soulmate of my heart… you are in my thoughts this September.
As our parting date approaches, I want you to know…
I’m good. I’m okay. I will always love you.
“And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.”
I Corinthians 13:1
